I've never accually cut myself or anything, because I always thoguht if i went that far id just end it, i was doing pretty bad but im on meds now so its workin out pre good..just bomb everynight, helps alot too.
I've been suicidal since about third grade, but cutting to me never seemed to be a warning sign, as along with great friends and great art, it is one of the things that stops me from ending it all.
cry, cry, cry, sob, sob, sob, man you dont like something fix it, or fuck it up. Just like Ill Bill said, "suicides played out, if you're going to die, take someone with you."
You have to be the dumbest piece of shit scraped up from the rancid floor of the hot-topic. That has to be the single worst piece of advice I have ever heard, and you have given A LOT of bad advice.
I wish I could let you know how I feel. And I wouldn't wish that on any decent human being. Once you know what's up, you can come back, and then I GUARANTEE you won't say stupid shit like this. Sorry, that just really pisses me off.
You think this whole fucking thing is some cheesy ass movie. Where depression is only a word and suicidal thoughts are fleeting notions and that "taking someone with you" is a great way to die. Now I know that you are only 14 and a freshman in high school but you will start to hear in a few years of some kids kicking the bucket in many ways. Personally 3 of my close friends have tried commiting suicide, 2 OD but were rushed to the hospital, the other, my best friend tried to hang himself. I hope no one even takes you seriously for a moment, especially for quoting a rapper on your concepts of life, again.
Baron makes a good point. This shit's for real. I'm only 16, and a sophomore, but I've already had four friends try and two succeed.
I tried to commit suicide a little over a year ago. I went through a lot of shit; had an abusive dad, I went to several doctors and had endless tests ran on my heart, brain, etc. and after all that I transferred to a new highschool, where I knew no one. After that I soon developed anxiety which prevented me from meeting anybody at school, and thus having anyone to talk to about all of that shit. I developed severe depression soon after. Around November last year I downed a bottle of Acetaminophen with about 50 pills, which should have shut my liver off. Luckily I threw up the pills; that saved my life. I'm so glad for that now. Depression may or may not ever go away, you need to deal with it, suicide is no way of dealing with it. If you kill yourself the problems are still there, you are just passing your problems on to your family and friends.
No matter what goes down, you're supposed to be living for some reason, everything you do effects the people around you daily. You change people's lives around you by your actions and committing suicide can be really hard on people that you don't realize you care a lot about. Don't give a fuck about society, if someone calls you straight up ugly or not what society thinks as acceptable for one reason or another and they are someone that you really care about, then just think of them as not worth your time. You are living and life is something really amazing. Don't get depressed by living to impress others based off of what others think as acceptable or appealing, think of how low they are for judging people like that and just cherish your life, who you are, and what you represent by living as yourself. Try to impact some people positively in some way and you are living for a reason. So don't ever think that you have no purpose in life or that you are a fuck up. Society is the fuck up, not you. Word.
I posted that in the quotes/words to live by thread, credited to ipwnFOOLz. And that's one of the big problems I have, is trying to make sure that everyone likes me, and as that's impossible, Im never happy with myself. I know it's wrong to feel like that, but idk how to change it.
stfup I know depression, and I wasnt trying to make others feel like shit, I was just saying an aggressive attitude is better than a passive one. Im done beefing with you dude, just stop trying to start shit.
I'm not re-hashing the dead beef I am just telling you that had to be the single worst piece of advice I have ever heard. You said to bring others down with you, as if you want them to suffer for your own internal problems.
Just sit back and accept who you are, you have to learn to appreciate yourself. No one is perfect and if they were, a lot of people would still say they were fucked up because everyone hates on everyone for different things to try to comfort their feels about themselves. Let them think what they think, if you be you, when people do truely like you, they will like you and respect you a hell of a lot more for being your real self, rather then trying to hide who you are and trying to be who you think people want you to be.
I dont knwo if this happens to anyone but me but christmas time always gets me fucking down, ever since I moved from Toronto things have been shit, like I live in a family thats always had a lot of money so everyone I know is superficial and my parents are never home so yeah christmas time makes me feel lonely cause everyone at schools like "im going to ..... for vacations with my family!" "my dads taking us to ......" and I really have nothing to do when people ask me what I'm doing them say "uh......stay home?" But friday I went with my psyciatrist again and I'm back on anti-deps. Now the point of all this was because on monday I was on the verge of killing myself, so I'm just gonna tell you guys like it is, if you guys have problems get help, if you go to a psyciatrist its not cause youre demented or crazy, you need that help, if it wasn't because my friend found out I was going to kill myself I would've been dead, but he helped me to go talk to my parents about it and yeah. So don't hold in the grudges, get help.
*Cesk*: I know how you feel. I got adopted into a well-to-do, extremely upper middle class family, and everyone at school expects these benefits to carry on to me, when in reality, my parents haven't paid for shit for me. *iPwnFOOLz*: Exactly, like in my mind I know that, but I can't convince the rest of me.