Please shutup, you tell titans nobody wants him here...but seriously, be honest with yourself. Do you really think anybody wants you to be here? I know i don't. Toke, if she loves you like she should...she'll come back. You just gotta hang on in there and be strong, is it just you now or do you have a father or siblings?
i was in a similar situation when i was 8 my mom is an alchaholic and she was binge drinkin for 8 days and i had to do everything for myself which was hard since my dad didnt live there.... then the 8th day he came and she said if i leave never to come back and i left. I put my clothes and things that ment a lot to me anf left with my dad.
sometimes the thought just comes naturally 2 u cuz its just like really what is the purpose in life like when have you accomplished what your here for and really no one nos so whats the point in stugglin day after day for nuthin really its kind of an endless cycle
It's kind of weird how you should mention that. I quit doing drugs and drinking, and I found art and making music as a great part of my being sober now. Most of the cats I write with all faced the same problems and are clean now. Graff is a sort of self-destructive lifestyle, but the art and emotion I pour into everything I do creatively has done more for me mentally, than any other self-destructive behavior. Shit gets rough, and art [especially graff] is a way for me to find myself inside my art.
to quote that guy out of shaolin soccer.."suicide is not the answer" i oten think about suicide but then i think hell why not die whenever it happens and just have fun or make a difference while i have my life.
"suicide is killing the only person u can change"....my boi told me dat not to long ago...i have always gone through a ruff time...seemed like all was lost l8ly...im no emo kid i might be called a wigger by sum but i def have emotional probs....i was trippin mad hard after dis girl led me on ontop of my other bs.... homies probs, im like a godamn diary or sumfin n dey my fam so like to help dem out , girl issues, stupid fucks beefn, fam probs all dat added up....ive tried hanging myself 3 months ago....my boi saved my life there .....but 2 weeks ago i attepmpted to blow my brains out...gun jammed....i guess i lucked out...
I understand what heads are doing here, it's liek the same for me, I will never tell anyone I know how I feel ever for various reasons, and I'm sure people think the same way about stuff. As well as never telling anyone how I feel in real life I would also never tell anyone over the internet. However, I can see the positive side of people being able to vent how they feel to an anonymous person whose judgements don't really mean shit to them in real life, I assume just being able to vent would help these cats. So why hate?
almost everyone has had a friend or two commit suicide, it hurts a lot man, this is one of the most painful things most humans go through, losing that person is hard, but it should give you insperation to live harder and longer in memory of that person, push it to the limit and live out what that person couldn't in memory of them, make the most of your days here and when times get rough for yall,jus push through it and keep livin.
Almost blew my own head off. But im passed that. And yeah I agree, graff artists tend to be the people who don't fit in so much. I mean I could be popular if I wanted, but I find people way too annoying. I'd rather paint. Anyways, Good thread, real talk, we dont need to lose anyone that way.
i dont even have 3 good friends... do i care? nope. i dont fit in, most graff writers are very far from normal. more than other ppl
ive helped 5 people out of depression and suicide it feels so good to know that you saved their lives
Msfyt, my love...this was genuinely a great idea for a thread....people, as i can read above, don't take the shit seriously....A+ for effort and caring.
i wrote this along time ago when i was going through some shit i fear the past you fear the present i can predict the future and im not in it my death is imminent six feet deep forever asleep shits permenent, friends and family will learn from it, as i enternally burn hoping its never your turn, This is my suicide fill your eyes with tears ill be in your heart for the everlasting years, but i never meant it, so many things could of prevent it you never got it in the mail but i sent it i only had one life and i took it away from all of yours snotty nosed kid corrupted since the age of 4 no father figure in my life but so much love in sight i couldnt understand me i just left that to my family someone was always there to guide me through it all because reality is wrong and dreams are for real just think of that when you close the casket and watch it seal someone told me "suicide is killing the only person who can change it" but im done with life i dont want to live rearranging shit. sitting here in fear, depression in fifth gear a whole new person when i look in the mirror you ruined me whoever you were. i cant believe suicide is on my fucking mind this wouldnt be the first time, its my own crime im going in but for time but whatever fuck it all i just leave you all with this suicide letter. the message is for who ever is struggling get it together life is like a flock of a million birds and your just a single feather treasure every moment from past to present and learn from every lesson..
ever think.....wen u up on the billboard wat it b like to jump...to b set free....idk....pigs catchin up wit me....friends livin their own lives.....shitty excuse for a family, graff....only thing kept me stable....now i even question....y do i try, y do i give a fuck, y dont i jus try again....that will be answered soon enuff i suppose....i think i jus may do sumfin....SKARS run DEEP....not only physically or emotional....but mentally....chronic, liqour, graff, pussy...ma life....n im sick of th e rep...
lol. or really test your limits and quit all the bad shit. stop drinking, smoking, fucking shit up. go to church? or are you too hardened already?
Yeah, listen to the man, going to church is a key part in becomming sane....Well I can't even type that with a straight face.
believing in a god is just a false reason to live its false hope and a waste of time... i dont really believe in people either cos all they are is a false reason to be here and most will let you down in the blink of an eye...