haha aiight bro thanks that helped, im a little less nervous now but lets hope everything will go smoothly
ive been doing good since i started practicing painting since ive never really painted but a few days later i was depressed again but im fine now and the best thing is my ipod came in today they gave me a new one cus they were to lazy to fix mine. Im putting tunes on it right now its gonna be easier with my ipod back since i didnt have any good CDs i stopped listening to music and got seveer depression and had no way to cope with it. I had to listen to my Mp3 lpayer wich is annoying and has crappy sound.My ipod hooks up to my surround sound so its gonna be soawesome to sit back in my room all day and listen to music. I gotta get some more plywood to practice painting. i still get a little depressed some times but im alright. thanx for asking homes
Ah this reminds me of the campfire at the camp i never went to and never discussed my feeling with all the other kids who never went
cds that's good to hear. i'm glad you're feeling better man. music really is the easiest way to deal with something. it feels good to just sit and chill in your room blastin some good jams. and man!cbcv, i wouldn't worry. the law shouldn't be something to be nervous about, at least when you're under 18. whenever i get in trouble with the law (never arrested though), the thing i'm most nervous about is my punishment from my parents. once you hit 18, there's nothing to worry about what's happening now, unless it's a felony. but this isn't, so it's fine.
eh living lawless is still the way to go..but serious question : we had this dicussion in philosophy class and it was like, if others arent allowed to do something, should you (technically) be allowed to do it? Should you do it? So basically this is dumb asking other writers but like i said i break laws but i still think others should follow them and I feel I shouldn't be allowed to break them if others can't but I'm still going to do it because I don't agree with them.
i mean, i steal from stores and shit cause i can't constantly pay the overmarked prices for some of that shit, but i won't steal directly from people. you reap what you sow. i used to when i was younger, and i didn't really think anything of it. i just thought everything belonged to me. but now, i know that if anybody stole the shit that i have, i would be furious. i just don't want to cause that distress for anybody else. unless of course, i think that person deserves it, or it won't matter at all (if they wouldn't notice or wouldn't miss it}. then all of that is thrown out. like, a while back these 2 kids i know who were dealing stole 20 bucks from me and my friend each. i was pissed, but i never thought i'd be able to do anything. but last year, i ended up with 2 chances on 2 different occasions, to steal the same amount's worth of shit from them, so i did it. one of them didn't notice, and the other one got mad, but realized that it was fine since he stole my money before. so i ended up with free syrup and free really really good bud. like i said, you reap what you sow. other laws don't really have that same principal for me. if somebody wants to break the law, let them
^word. I agree with the stealing part though. I used to steal from like 3rd grade to last year..everything..calculators (ti-83 shits), sneakers in p.e., wallets etc but now i realized i would hate if it happened to me, though it never has (ive been lucky i guess) but yeah its weird when you think of laws in that way so i wanna know what people think
i just had a couple weeks where i was fuckin myself up hardcore drinkin ,smokin like a mother fucker and hurtin myself, recently shits gotten better most issues sorted them selves out and my gfs been helpin me out and about that music comment I listen to the song Afraid Of Me by Twiztid whenever I'm feelin down cuz it makes me think about how the world is afraid of me and those like me good song i suggest a few ppl here should give it a try Oh and Karma by Twiztid
yeah thats true, yesterday the outpatient rehab im goin' to gave me a letter for me to give the courts saying that i've been rehibilitated and all that shit so im hoping that it will come in handy on thursday. your right though, it isn't that great of a deal so it'll prolly be a slap on the wrist, im just happy that my parents arent buggin, my dad wont talk to me and when i asked him to come he said no you dont want me there because ill tell the judge to lock you away, so fuck him. lol my mom supports me though so thas whatever.
Mast is right, while under 18 you're pretty much golden. After that become aware of your rights and learn to protect yourself because cops don't protect people, they protect private property. I've been on medication for about a year and a half now, i used to be very depressed untill i got it checked out. I ended up starting on meds and then stoping soon after because i felt inadequate(sp?) taking meds. I later got worse and decided to try it again with SSNRI's as opposed to SSRI's and i've been doing much better. It's important to stick with treatment if you decide to start! if anyone has questions about meds feel free to ask or pm me about them.
thank you for your advice, i am more aware of my rights now and i appreciate your insight on this, and as for the medication, i feel you on that one, i got started on meds about 6 months ago and it didnt work at first, in fact it led to a suicide attempt, but after i got out of the hospital they raised my dosage and since i've been alot better, and i dont think there is a magic pill out there that helps everything, you need to work with the medication for it to work, and i think thats where most people get it confused, but im glad to hear that you're doing better, keep it up and be safe homie
I haven't posted in here for a while but was wonderin' if anyone could help me out a bit. Lately, I've been so depressed constantly. I feel alot like I would rather be dead then go on with this shit. The main problem is I'm extremely lonely, I go to school and nobody talks to me, and I find it hard to talk with anyone else cause I feel so diffrent from them. Like there's this girl I have a major crush on and I asked her out and she said she had a boyfriend but I still can't get over her or stop thinkin' about her. So usally school is the most depressin'. Second of all, I just feel like such a complete piece of shit. I've cut myself before cause it just feels good to hurt myself I guess cause I hate myself so much. I mean, I'm sure if I had someone to hang out with or a girlfriend, it would make me alot more happy. But I would rather just die cause the bad things in the future certainly seem to outway any good things to come. I really need to meet some new people, but it's so hard fopr me to talk to anyone cause I feel so inadequite and I'm so shy. I really can't find much to live for lately so some help would be greatly appreciated...
You need to get out and paint, and smoke weed, and draw more. Don't cut yourself it'll bring unnecessary attention and doesn't accomplish anything. Keep yourself as busy as possible, being productive will make you feel better. School sucks, so practice your hand styles all class, I find sketching hard in school but its easy to get lost in your handstlye imagining what it'd look like as a piece. If you don't do something, you'll feel shittier knowing you wasted time you coulda spend progressing in SOMETHING.
I'm losin it my dudes.. My job is killin me, boss is a dick, school sucks.. Yet I can't quit cause if the money doesn't come in I don't go to school which means I don't have a future.. I don't know what to do and I can't believe I'm actually posting in this thread.. Seems pointless.. I'm so tired and over the edge with all the bullshit being thrown at me.. And to top it off I have no herb, no pills, no alch, no nothin.. I find myself now just starin into space with ideas runnin through my end..
Don't feel bad man I know how you feel. I've been depressed as shit lately and I don't say anything school, they labeled me as a risk too the school. Lately whenever I post on here I feel like I'm nothing compared too other people and that there's always someone to knock me down a peg. 5 of my best friends have died in the past 2 years and the only two kids that I was ever really friends with are in jail. My family is breaking apart from each other. I can't sleep, but when I do I hope I don't wake up and I'm having really messed up dreams.
Ya, I know what you mean by keepin' busy, it does help, but seriously. Lately I've been like just sittin' in class, or when I'm bored and daydreamin' about suicide. It just seems like such a relief from all this bullshit. I wish some people would actully talk to me at school, so I had more friends, but fuck, I hate all this bullshit.