cuss u made me read that long post claimin to depressed and desperate then u say ur not suicidal...u cudda put that first
It doesn't mean I'm not suicidal, by all means, if I had a quick way of killin' myself now like a gun, I'd be long gone, I'm just tryin' to be strong (even though I feel completely week) and keep on goin'
Thanx for the help, but I guess i'm just depressed, and pissed about girls rejectin' me. I mean, I can't even tell people around me how I feel. I just don't feel I'm worth there time anymore. Honetly, the only thing I feel like I have to live for now is the hope of gettin' a girlfriend and fallin' and love, and graff. Thats it when I really think about it.
i swear to god is BombingScience the only place where i am welcomed and not have a cold shoulder turned on me like everywhere else i go??? i swear to god i hate the world, my family, and everyone else i know there is like 2 ppl that are moderatley nice to me, and the only reason for that is because they have never been a bitch to me in the past i swear to go i am going to SNAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP if i fucking dont do something about this soon (WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO???? - NOT A FUCKING THING THATS WHAT) seriously FUCK THEE MOTHER FUCKING WORLD, I AM FUCKING DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I DONT GIVE A SHIT FUCKING LESS IF U SAY I AM NOT FUCK YOU IM OUT PEace... i mean its like i hate every one everywhere i go i hate the fucking people in the cars i pass on the way to school i fucking hate the ppl i see on the way im walking with on the way to school i hate every mother fucker in my classes, everyone at my school actually i hate all the mother fuckers at the malls, stores, places etc i go to i hate all the mother fuckers in the mother fucking world fuck fuck fuck i have snapped and just realized it im just glad bs is here to let me vent
have any of you guys watched "The Secret" or read the book its about positive thinking and its actually a scientific fact that if you think positive positive thing will happen and if you think negative negative things will happen. if you wanna try anything towards getting better i suggest you watch the vid or read the book it would probly be better to read the book if your interested in "The Secret" i watched it along time ago its really been helping me lately ive been finding money and stuff and being more happy but i still get a little depressed still sometimes just on week days cus i cant chill with my friend on week days.
i cant chill with my friend on week days oh boo hoo! mommy if you dont let me chill with my friend im going to post in the suicide thread about it! waah! ...actually forget that, the idea of you killing yourself isnt half bad.
hey, no need to be harsh about it... id be pretty pissed if i couldnt chill with my friends whenever as well, so theres no need to get up cds's ass... leave it out of here at least, we need to keep this part of the forums clean man =/
its that my friend lives far away so hes dont want to longboard all the way to my house and back and i dont want to ride up hills and stuff and his house is gay he thinks so to its way better at my place ive been lonely for so long and its been a huge part of my depression. you guys should check into "The Secret" right away it will help yall get better with realtion ships and money i cant really explain it but just check into rite awayt
yo tellin ppl to kill themselves is not cool i used to think being depressed was for "faggots" too but i now find myself in the same situation
come on, where are the mods on this shit? being depressed, or even suicidal doesnt mean your a faggot, if you think otherwise, i feel sad that you have to live with that brain.
just not acknowledging those people would probably work. i dont really even know what's going on right now. it's just all too confusing.
yeah, it might work, but sometimes the people that are in here cant forget about them... and whats up up with you? maybe its the time of the season, because i feel really fucked up right now too.
true, true. but it's just mostly shit with that girl. i don't know what's going on with her, and i don't know if i'm being led on or what. or if she's just that comfortable with me. (which also wouldn't be too bad) another problem is, i've recently started with blow. my friend was tellin me not to like it too much, but i do. i mean, i'm not addicted or anything, i've only done it a handful of times, but a month and a half ago, i was saying i'd never do it. then i did it, and i said i wouldn't do it again. then i decided to do it "1 more time", that turned into a couple more times, and now i just want it more. it's not completely the drug, it's mostly the principality of the situation. my self control is decaying. i used to be able to hold up so well, even before i had her, but now i really don't see much i'm living for, so i don't see a reason i should stop. i'm just gonna talk to her about it soon, cause she's really the only person that can help me out right now. there's probably not a whole lot she can do, but it's worth a try, cause i really can't run my own life right now. i just feel too weak. with that being said, blow is the best feeling i've had in the past 2 months. but if you haven't tried it, and you're in a bad situation already, don't touch it. and it really doesn't help at all that i've found a great hookup outside my friend. cause with him, he would regulate how much i could buy, and he wouldn't let me buy that much or that often. i just don't know right now... but what's goin on in the life of acereborn?
Dude, you just need a fucking slap in the face. Seriously, depression and drugs? I've done that shit, and it's not really worth it. I'm not really trying to hate or anything, I'm not too sure on your situation(I don't visit this thread very much), but I know from first hand experience that you'll just end up fucking yourself over. If that girl that you're talking about finds out, and she stops talking to you about it, you're just going to feel even shittier, then you're going to want even more blow, and then, before you know it, BAM! More drugs. No use for it bud.
that's the thing. i'm gonna talk to her about it. she's not the kind of person to just be like "oh well you're dumb for doing that so i'm gonna stop talking to you". we've been through some shit, and that hasn't happened once. so she's gonna be understanding about it for a fact and want to help, but i just don't know to which extent she'll be able to help. i do realize that the only person who can really help me is myself, but i really can't do it on my own, as i've said. if i just had some help in it, i'd be straight. i'm not to the point where it's really become a problem, but i just want to stop before i get to that point. like, i could easily convince myself i won't do it again, but i know that when it comes down to the moment, i won't feel the same way about it. i'll just be like "well, one more time."
yeah, it sounds like you really need to talk to this girl. ive pretty much tried to stay away from most drugs, just because sometimes id get fucked up thoughts. i'd be like you, and just say a bit more, and then start thinking that it was the best feeling in a while, and just keep with it. then id start getting thoughts about quitting school, and just ditching my family, just basically thinking up alot of dumb shit. im not much of a help right now, kinda loosing my mind. but one thing i do know is that fucking around with drugs will get you into a bad habit, just cut yourself off from them. ditch your money, leave your cell at phone, just make sure you dont get fucked with them. and whats up with the life of acereborn? ehhh alot of stuff... i loved this one girl.. she basically put me on a super life- high, it was an awesome time that we had together. she dumped me for my best friend, and my best friend and i have had some fights lately. ive got a new gf, i dont even know why were dating, i dont even really like her. im being forced to do some crazy training for something im not even good at, im starting a new job, a fuckload of homework, been feeling sick for a while, and cant get out of it. my friends baby (not born yet -- or ever) just died, and ive been screwed up from that too. losing a bunch of my friends, talking about how im always "out", and i never have the time for them. bs. mehh.. idk... /rant
Yeah man, just hit me up on MSN or AIM, PM, whatever you want. I've got a bit of experience in this sort of drug/girl/depression problems. I'm pretty sure I can help you out.