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Discussion in 'General Discussion' started by GeSuS_KRiST, Dec 17, 2006.

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  1. GeSuS_KRiST

    GeSuS_KRiST Moderator

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    an its gonna be along december, and theres reason to belive that maybe this year will be better then the last....

    sigh... so so close... yet so far away, these are the shitty times the times where out last convos happen, i remember fucking breaking down downtown with everyone once this shit happened like it was yesterday, i remember some guy i didnt know relling me everything gonna eventually be allright then walking off... maybe hes right but doesnt seem like it...

    "when im gone an outta site homie down worry about me ill be alright"
    le sigh....gotdamn i miss you kid, god damn i miss you....
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    :\ *hug for gesu*
  3. SKriBL*666

    SKriBL*666 Elite Member

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    Really wish i could knew the kat.
    Guys stylin was so iLL is was ridiculous.
    If i had permission and the skill i would want to commemorate a piece even a sketch.
    But neither has came =[
  4. nero122

    nero122 Elite Member

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    are you fukin serious?
  5. Capable1

    Capable1 Senior Member

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    if you could go higher he always did! MISS YOU 12....! wish i had kept the blank canvas he neva started for me...and gesus eventually it will b alright..yur random is right
  6. BeeOne234...

    BeeOne234... Elite Member

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    I love you and miss your presence beyond any words i could type.
  7. GeSuS_KRiST

    GeSuS_KRiST Moderator

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    still feels liek yesterday i was calling you at that party...^ :(
  8. GeSuS_KRiST

    GeSuS_KRiST Moderator

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    he just a fag who likes fucking with the mods you might know him as :
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    theres his IP is anyone wants it... anyways his posts were deleated, him bring beef to this thread was just another way for someone to notice him, its sad that people are so starved for attechion that they must infact disrespect a dead person to have someone pay attechion to there voice on the internet... fucking pathetic
  9. MoNkEy

    MoNkEy Elite Member

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    I was about to say the same thing...he would all ways go higher than everyone....

    do a sketch mate.... waste would never of downed you for it....:)
  10. nero122

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    sorry gesus didnt mean to fuel his fire but yeah if i knew how to find him id beat his ass not personally kniwing waste doesnt mewan i or anyone else aint got the right to beat a hater .rip waster 12 ... the ilovewastertwelve throiwe was :D
  11. hittingyourmom

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  12. BeeOne234...

    BeeOne234... Elite Member

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    tony, for real, chill with these dreams......
    I guess my subconcious is tweeked and overpowers me.
    I woke up screaming again, my pillow soaked with memory.
    I keep having the same exact dream, i won't go into detail, it's severly morbid...but it plays in flashframe...really fast scenes and then really slowed down ones.
    Lain is on, and he is there...He is alive and vibrate....then his glow is replaced with a photograph from his dad i recieved, that cannot be erased.
    Yo, i'm shook.
    4 stallions, not mares have invaded my nights...
    Why can't I find the place to let him rest?????????
    I KNOW that if I could release this back into the universe my soul could heal from my own personal loss of Antonio......
    Seemingly impossible.
    The strangest part of it all is...
    My life is rockin' I am the happiest I have ever been...
    Married my best friend, I got Tony's blessing before AND after he passed...
    He knew him from this website and def approved of our connection, so why then are my dreams still wrapped around a twelve???
    It's hard you know, to get woken up from dreams like these and him know they are still about Tony....
    It's a akward feeling that I am stuck with....
    incomplete this and thats....
    [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Some days awakenings move as slowly as
    your funeral procession.
    The nights
    stand still.
    Or shake me to the core...
    Wiping sleep and tears from my eyes...
    Empty vessels are but decoration
    and some days
    like this day
    I'm empty
    without your words.
    Your voice filled my life with hope,
    your love and compassion
    gave so many details meaning.
    Little remains in all reality
    but a forgotten plot
    with a stone that reads
    rest in peace.
    But there is no rest,
    and peace
    is not finding me where i sleep.
    I never thought I'd see the day
    When I would find you'd slipped away
    A artist sickness that had left you numb
    Your body could not overcome
    You were my grandshun and my friend
    From the start to painful end
    Even now, I cannot describe
    The emptiness I feel inside
    Without you my lifes not the same
    I feel I have myself to blame
    Because the day that you did die
    I didn't get to say goodbye
    I called and left a message twice
    we all did, we wondered why
    Your birthday is coming up...
    a year later,
    my minds fucked up.
    I haven't been on BS in months...
    I wait for a response from him, something in my inbox...
    today, a thursday, no particular reasoning...
    I awoke covered in tears,
    Went in the closet and brought down a box,
    filled with all his art and intention
    even now I still can't mention
    how much this man has touched
    and forever changed this bug
    I'd do anything,
    for next time you come thru my slumber
    just lay with me and hug.
    I need a convo with pills...
    i miss so many of you bombing science crew...
    ramble ramble
    my thoughts get typed
    just didn't know where to put this
    yet again
    i am here
    feeling lost.
    I miss Antonio beyond any words I can type off the top of my head...
    Some days the air is just thicker than others
    and i can't find my breath
    exhale on bombing science
    afterall this was the beginning to a ever after union
    and i can't hold it in. depressed?
    nah nah i am not that...I have a smile on as I looked through the photographs and all the sketches past...
    He really is buried in my heart and from time to time he digs....
    to the places I can't help but deal and rewind....
    My dreams are held captive
    and if you hear me, come nearer to me,
    Turn off the dramatic soundtrack and hum to me once more...
    bring back the purple sunsets and cotton candy clouds...
    Are any of you with me here?
    Are your dreams the peace you can't find?
    Above all, I am wonderful, content and EXACTLY where he would want me to be in my why am i replaying a vision, I didn't even see with my own eyes...perhaps he is standing behind me...
    watching as i type....
    read this mistah 12 and draw me R.E.M stage lullabys...
    I can't write head is numb.
    I just needed a place to put antonio.

  13. taskforce

    taskforce Member

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    That was beautiful :(

  14. nero122

    nero122 Elite Member

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    beautiful.... rip dude
  15. [NESTER]

    [NESTER] Senior Member

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    that was really good rip man
  16. chalo500

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    The other day I was at a thrift shop looking at books, and without thinking started to pick out books for Tony. I remembered that he was dead and had to sit down, out of breath, crying. Even though I saw him dead, at times, I forget.
  17. ekimboi1

    ekimboi1 Senior Member

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    " and if you should cry, dont blame ya self or keep it locked inside" i forget the name of the song, i know its on the FREK SHOW album, ilove twiztid!! rip waster12...
    Last edited: Dec 10, 2007
  18. vegimite on toast

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  19. GeSuS_KRiST

    GeSuS_KRiST Moderator

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    bump that...

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    and some for the queenbee...

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    and one for the doctor...
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  20. MTsoul

    MTsoul New Member

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    it has been 1 year and it still feel like it was yesterday that you said ''later man'' while leaving.
    i just cant shake out the feeling that you just might appear again, just as randomly as you used to do.
    so once again, later man, and thanks for the 6 years of fun times and memories.

    rest in peace.