this probably won't help and is the reason you do drugs. but you sound like a huge fucking loser, constantly posting about how fucked up you are, doing lame ass drugs. how about this, take your xanax, oc's, andd hmm,,vikes. then some blow, drop a few tabs, eat an eigth. and drink some bleach.
hell yeah that spot needed a burner!!! yo peep this flick its bad as fuck; check your local listings: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1127715/